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Entries from December 2006

Four-wheelers and Oh! Gravity

December 27, 2006 · 1 Comment

Well… Christmas has passed.

Not really.

Christmas celebrates the birth of a saviour, so in reality we (should) celebrate Christmas all year round. Because who wouldn’t want to live in a way so as the praise their rescuer?

I hope everyone has had an enjoyable holiday season thus far. :)

Don’t get burried in the wrapping papper and the commercialism and the stress. Take time to enjoy the reality of a Savoiur who chose an unasuming stable for His first home. Though I’m sure His favorite residence is one close to your heart.

Anyways… At least there’s a temporary end to Christmas commercialism. Thank the Lord!

So far Christmas break had been enjoyable.

I’ve gotten to spend time with the family, as well as good friends.

I’ve seen my church’s new youth wing–yay!!! And did some painting… though I probably put more paint on David and Kevin than I did on the walls! :)

Stopped in at the Geneva school Christmas dance, went to a wedding…

Lucas, Ricardo and Lisandra were out playing soccer one afternoon, and I joined them for a little bit last week. I probably should have worn shoes though… But I was happy to finally see them!

Winter Park FCA had a white elephant gift exchange and Christmas Party, and I got to visit with a lot of old friends there too.

I celebrated the birthdays of a couple amazing friends as well, went shopping with mom and dad, made a Starbucks run or two, and went Christmas caroling.

And there’s still soooo much I want to do before I have to head back up to school for Spring semester…

Christmas Eve my family went to church, and then spent the afternoon and evening with my dad’s side of the family. Christmas morning and afternoon my family opened gifts at home, and then scrambled to pack for a trip to North Carolina on the 27th. We arrived at my grandparent’s in Ocala (mom’s side) around 7pm, had dinner, opened gifts and visited. Everyone finally crashed somewhere around 2am. Cousins and siblings spralled across the floor and furniture around me…

:)

One of my cousins’ Christmas gifts (Charlie and George, ages 7 and almost 4) were two four-wheelers, along with a RTV 900 (a big tractor) for my grandfather. We spent the better half of the morning driving them around wildly in the yard. I didn’t do most of the driving. I left that to my siblings and cousin Charlie. When I drove, I didn’t even break 10 mph. Ha…perhaps you should be glad I’m not a liscenced driver yet…I’d be the one you’d be tailgaiting. (Even as I type my cousin Charlie stands reading my words aloud behind me.)

It’s been a laid back afternoon and evening. One of the highlights would have to be making a trip out to get the new Switchfoot CD “Oh! Gravity,” which I have already managed to listen to all the way through 3+ times this evening, reading carefully through the lyrics again and again.

An added bonus was to find that Target was selling the wonderful album at around $10. :)

Right now I am content to listen to my music. My wonderful, beautiful, sweet sounding Switchfoot CD.

Ah, I am happy.

Switchfoot Highs=AMAZING

And tomorrow I head for North Carolina.

The prospect of mountains and actual cold wheather in December thrill me. Although admittedly the thought of a long drive with six people… and in a tight space…

Who am I kidding? I’ve survived two separate 6-week long family roadtrips. A short excursion to NC will be a piece of cake! (I hope).

I love long road trips. They always provide me with a wonderful opportunity for reflection and listening to some good music.

The rest of the family has headed home now, and my grandparents and family are slowly starting to disapear to their beds. We’re supposed to get an early start in the morning. Haha.

I’ll have to be blasting my music through my headphones to energize myself in the morning. Switchfoot’s “Awakening” sounds appropriate.

I guess I better hit the sack. Soooo…..
Merry Christmas

Happy New Year

Safe Travels

And all that Jazz.

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Short and Sweet

December 16, 2006 · No Comments

So this will be a short, most likely boring post, considering I’ve been asked to be off the computer by 11:30pm.

I forget that my family, unlike me now, goes to bed at halfway descent hours of the night.  (And my tapping at the computer keys may very well keep them up.

I hope everyone is enjoying their Christmas break so far.

I’ve had a relaxing couple of days…and want to get back to seeing as many people as possible before break is over.

I tried to go shopping today.  Emphasis on tried.  Because I failed to find a dress to wear to a friend’s wedding tomorrow morning.  Plus, I hate malls in December, so I’m not the most effective shopper anyway.

<>Tomorrow night is the Geneva school Christmas dance.  I’m hoping to make a surprize appearance.  I received a last minute invitation this evening, and I love dancing, so why not?   :)

My family still has yet to decorate our Christmas tree.  Weren’t they sweet to wait for me to get back home from UF?

I’m trying out a new layout for my blog.  The header is actually a photo I took on my youthgroup’s coast to coast trip in November.  Sunrise at New Symyrna.  :)

I’m sorry…this is a complete composite of unrelated thoughts that I’m putting together.

My desire to write this week has been strong…  I want to work on some new poetry over the break.  Hopefully I’ll be productive.

I was thinking today that I’d love to have someone who could pretty much just organize my life for me.  I love planning things, but in hindsight, there’s always a better way to do things, and I want to live my life in order to maximize my own enjoyment.  i.e. I want to be able to have every litte second planned out so that I’m not bored or wasting my time.  Because when I was watching a rerun of some television show late last night, I thought to myself:

“This is a complete waste of time”

Because who on earth wants to waste their precious time watching some stupid show they’ve already seen.

So…  my New Years  resolution–and Christmas break resolution for that matter–is to no longer waste any of my time.

That’s essentially it, in a nutshell.  Because right about now it’s almost 11:30pm…

Goodnight. :)

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O Holy Night

December 11, 2006 · No Comments

I met an angel yesterday.

She appeared in the form of nursing home resident Connie Taylor.

After church Sunday afternoon, I went out to lunch with a few friends, during which I received a phone call from my friend Cassie inviting me to join her and a few others to go out to a local nursing home and sing Christmas carols. Our group consisted of Cassie, Megan, Rachel, Brittany and myself.

When we arrived at the nursing home, we were told that we could gather residents into the dining hall. We began knocking on doors and stopping in the hallways, informing people that if they’d like, we would love for them to join us in singing. After gathering a small crowd of around 15 or so, us girls introduced ourselves and invited music requests. We sang everything from “Rudolph the Rednosed Reindeer” to “The First Noel.” One resident would count off for us before each song, and another would shake a tambourine. One lady requested “I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Clause,” but we didn’t know all of the lyrics. We asked for her to help us with them, a request at which she first declined, before slowly starting to sing the song to us. I watched the eyes of some residents close (in sleep, though I hope none in boredom), while other eyes glistened over with memories, some happy, other perhaps less joyous.

At the end of our performance, we were applauded, asked a few questions, and thanked for our gift.

We had decided to return to a few other residents’ rooms that were unable to make it down, and we gave a special performance for them.

Two ladies sharing one room requested Silent Night, and as I sang each verse, I watched as one woman sang along with us.

Our final stop yesterday afternoon was to the very last room in the hall. There, sitting on the last bed by the window, was Connie Taylor. She welcomed us, and asked what organization we had come with. We replied that we were just a group of frineds who had participated in a Bible study together, at which her eyes lit up.

“I lead a Bible study here in our dining hall on Friday nights. We’re stuck on the first few verses of John now: “In the beginning was the word, and the word was with God and the Word was God.” Isn’t that powerful? It’s so true though. And since we are God’s annointed, we are annointed with the Word. Our appointment is so important. I know some people say that it’s wrong to say that we’re God, but it’s true–we are God’s annointed, to some people we are the only Christ they will ever know…”

She continued on for a few more minutes, and was explaining this idea to us, before asking what we were going to sing to her, and we asked her what she’d like to hear. She replied, “Anything.” We sang “Away in a Manger” and “O Holy Night,” at which she seemed ready to burst at the seems, telling us that those songs were a couple of her favorites, and that we had sang them more beautifully than she had ever heard before. She said we must have been part of a chior, and that only people who’d been annointed by God and were given the job of bringing Him to others could have sung so pretty.

Connie asked if she could pray for us before we left, and so we all joined hands and stood around her bed. After the prayer, she gave us all a hug and a kiss, as if she were our grandmother and had watched us grow up. She told us that she had been in the nursing home for five years after breaking her leg. All of her family lives in Oregon.

“I hadn’t planned on being here too long, and Lord willing, I can get better and move out to be with my family. I’m just hoping for a miracle, if one will come. What am I saying, I know one will come, it’s just a matter of the Lord’s timing.”

She thanked us for our singing, and for coming to her room especially, even if it might not have been the most exciting thing to do when we could have left for our own homes. We were invited to come back anytime to visit, and to stop in on her Bible study sometime. I hope to eventually get that chance.

With this semester’s close, and between events and gathering and friends and work, it’s seemed that it’s taken longer for reflection on the season. Connie was the first real taste of Christmas that I’ve had.

Christmas parties and ice skating and friends are all wonderful things, but it’s that love, completely unexpected–love even if it’s coming from complete strangers–that remindes me of Christmas. To the general public, Christmas has become that idea of holiday parties and good fellowship or stressful shoping and spending even. It’s labeled the “season of giving,” but what exactly are we giving? Are we giving love?

Perhaps it’s not that hard to sit around a room with the ones that you care for and say “Let’s not forget the reason for the season. Let’s not forget that it’s baby Jesus’ birthday.” But what about a room full of strangers, or a room full of the ragged and torn and forgotten? It’s true, at Christmas we celebrate Jesus’ birth–but are we celebrating His LIFE? Aren’t we also supposed to celebrate the Jesus that was born in a stable, the one that spent his life with the “rejects” of his society, the Jesus whose message was to Love… To love your neighbor as yourself.

Even if you don’t celebrate Christmas for religious reasons, would you deny that LOVE–unrequitted, unbiased, free-given love–is one of the greatest gifts ever given?

Connie, even in her state at the nursing home, demonstrated that love to us. The last stanza of her favorite Christmas carol, “O Holy Night” demonstrate the beauty of love, and its place in the Christmas season:

Truly He taught us to love one another,
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains he shall break, for the slave is our brother.
And in his name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
With all our hearts we praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! Then ever, ever praise we,
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
His power and glory ever more proclaim!

“For the slave is our brother”–Though in America today, slavery has been abolished, society has managed to enslave people in other ways: poverty, oppression, sickness, despair, and truth is burried and love forgotten by all… How beautiful would it be to be able to join together, slave and free, as brothers and sisters and sing songs in a unified, joyful chorus? We have put up divides between people, with disregard to the fact that we are all human beings who need love, we focus on nationalities, ethnicity, creed, sexual orientation, religious or denominational preference… The list goes on. I do not believe that perfect peace will be restored until Jesus returns. And upon reading that, some of you may feel like sparking debate, but that’s for another time and place, and besides my point.

My point is that even in the midst of remembering the reason for the season, we have forgotten it. We still hold tightly to our points of view, our biases, our prejudices and pride. We forget to let go of these things, even at Christmas time. (Though they should be things that are non-existent no matter the time of year).

Christmas is not just about celebration and festivities and whatever… It is the mark of the day when the greatest act of love came into this world. It is a celebration of what His life would mean to many, and the hope of salvation that God wanted to be made available to all.

I’m tired of political correctness:

Jesus-true love-is the reason for the season. HE is the reason we celebrate. HE is the gift we should be sharing with others. HE is the love that so many do not know.

Connie is right. To many people, we may be the only Christ someone may ever know. The way we live our lives, the way we love people-whether it be those who know us well or those who don’t know us at all-could very well be the only exposure that someone may ever have to Christ’s love. That fact alone is daunting enough knowing that I am such a flawed human being, and have not perfectly loved my neighbor.

But, with the hope that we may be like that star that shown above Bethlehem, let us try and live our lives so that they may point to Christ this holiday season. (Whether it’s singing Christmas carols in a nursing home, feeding the homeless or being with the ones you love, and loving them…)

Thank you, Connie. :)

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O, to be beautiful…

December 9, 2006 · 1 Comment

I have decided that if I was to ever publish a book of poetry (a life-long dream, actually) that I will title the book “Soul’s Scattered Thoughts” with a possible sub-title being “The Heart of a Broken Human.” I also decided that if I was to ever publish said book, I would donate a large majority, if not all, of the proceeds to charity or missions or the like. (This assuming of course that I could ever get a publisher to buy what I write.)

In my book, I would be sure to include a list of some major life influences, some cool music and books that have influenced my life, and a few quotes from scripture–you know: scattered thoughts of mine, along with what I write.

I don’t know. I have put some thought into it.

The main reason I was really thinking about it tonight though was because I was at a benefit concert this evening. More on this event…

6 Days From Sunday, an amazing band that I’m priviledged to know, and another talented artist, Sydney Schaef (along with a friend on violin and my friend Sam on the Jimbai) performed a concert to raise money for Desire Street Ministries. Desire Street had been based out of inner-city New Orleans, in the 9th Ward-made popular by hurricane Katrina. The ministry does a lot of work for the city, and had established a school to help with the educational, spiritual and other needs of the city’s inhabitants. Mo Leverett founded the operation, and Hiesman Trophy winner and former UF 1996 quarterback Danny Wuerful also works with Desire Street. With the hurricane, they’ve faced a lot of hardships, and have been displaced, but continue to bless all those that benefit from their work. I will have a link up soon which can tell you more about the organization if you’re interested, so check my blogroll out soon!

My church back home actually had the opportunity to work with Desire Street Ministries last Christmas, raising money, sending supplies and later volunteers to work in post-Katrina New Orleans. I was really happy to hear that a concert I had planned on attending previously would be in support of such a wonderful organization.

Listening to Sydney, I was dumbfounded. Her songs were beautiful, and her talent immense. And amidst that, she was so humble, and seemed to give so much of herself to such a wonderful cause (she’s done lots of mission work and volunteered with Desire Street Ministries). But listening to her, I really wanted to be able to do something like that. I wanted to be able to do something really visible for Christ, to love His creation–to love the people He loves.

When I was listening to Sydney, and later to 6 Days From Sunday, I started thinking of all the people that I’m either aquainted with, or know personally, that I want to emulate. People that with all that they have-whether a lot or a little–serve God and love others with such a beautiful heart. There are so many amazing organizations–Desire Street, To Write Love on Her Arms, Blood Water Mission, ONE, Helping Hands…I could go on forever. And the people behind such things–my church leaders, youthleaders, camp counselors, FCA and RUF leaders–all of whom I love, and whose hearts are pure gold… they leave such an impact on the world around them.

And part of me is jealous, because I want to really see that my life have such an impact for Christ that can be visible. I know that God uses everyone in different ways, and that we may be called to different things. And in all honesty, it’s probably more selfish to want to have such a thing like that. Truthfully, I think that I should be satisfied to know that God will use me anyway, and that what I do doesn’t have to be recognized by man in order to be great in the sight of God.

Further proof of my shortcomings, and the fact that God has much work to do in me, and that I should probably start earnestly praying for a change of heart.

6 Days From Sunday, in playing their final song, sang these words:

So turn the lights down, I can’t see

past the glitter that is me

Hush the music, let me hear

love songs whispered in my ear

(From Turn the Lights Down, on their CD “Bigger Than We Are”)

And then I realized something—that’s me. I want the spotlight, I’ve got the lights turned up so high, I can’t see past myself–I can’t see into the crowd of people in front of me–people who need love: God’s love. And the music’s up so loud–I’m the one singing, because I love to hear my own voice; but here’s where things break down: I’m unable to hear the love songs God’s whispering in my ear. I’ve gone and tried to find satisfaction and love wherever I can, and the reality of it is that it’s being whispered into my ear the whole time.

Honestly–I want to be that glitter, and I’ve been happy so far listening to that loud music because I’m so easily satisfied with blowing out my eardrums.

I don’t know why, but there’s this line that I’ve been repeating in my head over and over again these past couple of days…

O, to be beautiful

O, to be beautiful

O, to be beautiful…

Because I want so badly to be that beautiful… I want so badly to be the person behind that cause or that idea or that creativity that people listen to, that they cry for, that they applaud and sing along to. I want to be emulated, I want to be lauded…

I’d even satisfy for just being associated with all of it… I start dropping names, songs, book authors and causes like the clouds dropping rain. I bring it to people, saying, in my longing for love, “It changed my life, it’s an honor to be a part of it, to have shared in their lives, to have read what they wrote, to have sung their songs or to have supported their causes…”

And Christ, while holding up my filthy rags of words and deeds immediatly understands my need to keep wiping things up with them. To try and cover my messes, to cover my trails of insecurity. He’s discovered me, and with an understanding smile, He has gently placed my rag in the trash, and told me… He told me that I could not have cleaned up a mess with a rag that was already dirty. But it doesn’t matter anyway, because He already cleaned thing up.

So, if I ever get to publish a book of poetry, I can only hope that I will have by then gotten over cleaning things with dirty rags, and enjoy the work Christ’s already done. And perhaps I can bring a flower to decorate His table. Or better yet, perhaps I can bring someone to that table with me.

(If all I’ve said seems like total abstraction to you, please let me know. I’d love to clarify things…)

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Yes, I enjoy playing football and Halo 2

December 4, 2006 · 2 Comments

Yeah GATORS!!!! Way to win the SEC Championship!!!

(And this got me thinking on how-especially as Americans-need to be entertained. I mean, we’re watching men in uniforms run around and pulverize each other in order to run with an oddly shapped ball. DO NOT GET ME WRONG. I LOVE football. I could watch it for quite some time–and yes, I understand it–and I love to play. I have nothing against it. I was just amused when I really took the time to think about it. Just about everything we do is strange. But when I thought about it, those of us who’ve been blessed materialistically (In this I basically mean any and everyone who’s been fortunate to not have to live in a third-world country-needs a lot in order to be amused.) I just thought that isn’t it funny that with the more stuff we aquire, with the more fortunate we are, that it takes more for us to be happy in the first place, it takes more for us to be amused, it takes more for us to be greatful? So I have nothing against football at all… I want to see the Gators make it all the way to Nationals. But I want to keep things in perspective. I want to be easily amused. I want to be more greatful. I want God to be all that I really need to be happy. And there’s my tangent…)

Now what was I going to say…

Oh, yeah…

Weekend recap:

Friday-hung out with some FCA Freshmen, played mafia…

Saturday-woke up at 12:30, went with Caitlin and Kate to get supplies for our bug project, came back, went to watch the Gators win the SEC Championship!!! Went over to a friends and watched more football and ate pizza. Came back to the dorm and watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail for the first time ever.

Sunday-woke up a little later than expected. Went to Church with Grace and Delane, then stopped by Olive Garden for some soup with Delane, where we bumped into Emily. :) Delane had to pick up her sweater from a friends apartment, so we stopped by. They were playing Halo 2 and invited us to join in. So we did play a few games with them. I wasn’t all that good (Ok, I was probably horrible) but I beat my previous record of 3…and had a new all-time high of 12, and at one point durring a game I was holding the lead for a while!! Haha. Then we watched the movie (or at least most of) The Talented Mr. Ripley. I have to admit…It was a little creepy. When we got back after 5pm, I spent some time listening to music.

I took a nap today at 7:30pm, and woke back up at 11:30pm. And now I’m just sitting here. I only have 2 more classes before I finish this semester on Wednesday. I have to finish getting together a bug costume for my “Bugs and People” class. Delane let me borrow some fairy wings. And I have to compile my poetry portfolio, and finish writing some old 1 page papers for that. And then–In concluding my week, I must present a project on “How to be an Affective Teacher” for my Intro to Education class.

It shall be a busy, but short beginning of the week.

I still need to figure out when and how I’m getting home. Ugh. Oh well… Should be simple enough.

I’m currently listening to my music, and noticed that I have a lack of Christmas hymns on my iTunes… I have asked my sister to help remedy that. :)

Ah, it’s 1am and I’ve not seemed to get anything productive done. Again. What a trend.
Chem 6A, my friend, Chem 6A.

Oh, well… It just means I’ll have to work harder the rest of this week.

Which means… (and the following is more for my benefit-to write it out.)

Monday-volunteer from 9am until 1pm… Work at 2:30 till 4pm. Finish my poetry portfolio and get a bug costume together.

Tuesday-wake up early (uuugggghhh) for Bug Fair Day!!! Volunteer more (need to complete my hours by Wednesday!) Complete (and finish) my presentation for Into to Education.

Wednesday-Give my presentation and I’m done!

I’ll also finish my psych studies this week. Thank goodness I’ll have reached the credit requirements by the cutoff date!!!!

But I guess I better get to sleep…because tomorrow will be an early morning. And it’s 1:30am…again.

And I just heard that the Gators are going to Nationals!!! Woohoo!!!

: )

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Bands, Books and the Game of Mafia

December 2, 2006 · No Comments

So for the crazy ridiculous stressful week it’s been, it had a nice end to it.

In between studying for psychology, I managed to go to the campus coffee shop “Orange and Brew” to see the amazing musicians known as Band Marino. If you have not heard their music, look them up on myspace, or buy their New CD “The Sea and the Beast” beacause they are really good. This was my third time seeing them in concert, and I enjoyed it even more than the first. They have a CD release party tomorrow (I guess today) down in Orlando, but fortunately, they had decided to sell copies last night. I am very pleased to say that I bought the very first Band Marino CD in existence. They told me so. They even signed it for me and put a # 1 on the top corner. :)

It’s good stuff. And I was still able to make it back to the dorm in time to submit my online psychology quizes before midnight!!

Minimal sleep this week has not been fun, yet I still seem to be going tonight, and it’s 2:25am. Yikes. Thank goodness tomorrow is Saturday! (And the SEC Football championship!!! GO GATORS!!!!)
Tonight I hung out with some cool FCA freshmen. We were going to have a movie night, but just hung out instead, watched some TV, talked, played a game or two of Mafia. (I’m not going to go into detail to explain it, just know that it’s a really cool game that involves deductive reasoning, and at times detailed explination on why either you’re not the mafia, or why you think someone else is… It’s a lot of fun.)

After we’d played a few games, we started telling some random jokes…

I told the ones…

What do you call a cow with 2 legs? –Lean beef

What do you call a cow with 1 leg? –Steak

What do you call a cow with no legs? –Ground beef

Another friend took to telling the ones…

What do you call a guy with no legs or arms floating on the water? –Bob

What do you call a guy you lay in front of your door? –Matt

And so on and so forth…

And then–another friend was making up versions of those jokes and said:

What do you call a guy that you sit on and watch TV? –Couch!!

Another friend replied:

Why didn’t you just call it a lazy boy?

Anyways I probably bored you with that, but I thought it was hillarious. :)

So it’s been a good end to a stressful week. I might go play some football with some friends before I head over to watch the game.

But right now I think I’m going to go to bed.

Night!

:)

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